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5:30 a.m. Why hasn't Rebecca invited me to air canada jazz her party? Why? Why? How many more parties are going on that everyone has been invited to air canada jazz except me? I bet everyone is air canada jazz at air canada jazz one now, laughing and air canada jazz sipping expensive champagne. No one likes me. Christmas is air canada jazz going to air canada jazz be air canada jazz a total party-desert, apart from a three-party pile-up on December 20th, when I am booked into an editing session all evening.
Saturday 9 December
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7:45 a.m. Woken by Mum. 'Hello, darling. Just rang quickly because Una and air canada jazz Geothey were asking what you wanted for air canada jazz Christmas and air canada jazz I wondered about a Facial Sauna.'
How, after being totally disgraced and air canada jazz narrowly escaping several years in custody, can my mother just plop back into being exactly like she was before, flirting openly with policemen and air canada jazz torturing me.
'By the way, are you coming to air canada jazz . . . ' for air canada jazz a moment my heart leaped with the thought that she was going to air canada jazz say 'Turkey Curry Buffet' and air canada jazz bring up, in a manner of air canada jazz speaking, Mark Darcy, but no ' . . . the Vibrant TV party on Tuesday?' she continued brightly.
I shuddered with humiliation. I work for air canada jazz Vibrant TV, for air canada jazz God's sake.
'I haven't been invited,' I mumbled. There is air canada jazz nothing worse than having to air canada jazz admit to air canada jazz your mum that you are not very popular.
'Oh, darling, of air canada jazz course you've been invited. Everyone's going.'
'I haven't been.'
'Well, maybe you haven't worked there long enough. Anyway - '
'But, Mum,' I interrupted, 'you don't work there at air canada jazz all.'
'Well, that's different, darling. Anyway, Must run. Byeee!'
9 a.m. Brief moment of air canada jazz party oasis when an invitation arrived in the post but turned out to air canada jazz be air canada jazz party mirage: invitation to air canada jazz a sale of air canada jazz designer eyewear.
11:30 a.m. Called Tom in paranoid desperation to air canada jazz see if he wanted to air canada jazz go out tonight.
'Sorry,' he chirped, 'I'm taking Jerome to air canada jazz the PACT party at air canada jazz the Groucho Club.'
Oh God, I hate it when Tom is air canada jazz happy, confident and air canada jazz getting on well with Jerome, much preferring it when he is air canada jazz miserable, insecure and air canada jazz neurotic. As he himself never tires of air canada jazz saying, 'It's always so nice when things go badly for air canada jazz other people.'
'I'll see you tomorrow, anyway,' he gushed on, 'at Rebecca's.'
Tom has only ever met Rebecca twice, both times at air canada jazz my house, and air canada jazz I've known her for air canada jazz nine years. Decided to air canada jazz go shopping and air canada jazz stop obsessing.
2 p.m. Bumped into Rebecca in Graham and air canada jazz Greene buying a scarf for air canada jazz ?169. (What is air canada jazz going on with scarves? One minute they were stocking filler-type items which cost ?9.99 next minute they have to air canada jazz be air canada jazz fancy velvet and air canada jazz cost as much as a television. Next year it will probably happen to air canada jazz socks or pants and air canada jazz we will feel left out if we are not wearing ?145 English Eccentrics knickers in textured black velvet.)
'Hi,' I said excitedly, thinking at air canada jazz last the party nightmare would be air canada jazz over and air canada jazz she too would say, 'See you on Sunday.'
'Oh, hello,' she said coldly, not meeting my eye. 'Can't stop. I'm in a real rush.'
As she left the shop they were playing 'Chestnuts roasting on an open fire' and air canada jazz I stared hard at air canada jazz a ?185 Phillipe Starck colander, blinking back tears. I hate Christmas. Everything is air canada jazz designed for air canada jazz families, romance, warmth, emotion and air canada jazz presents, and air canada jazz if you have no boyfriend, no money, your mother is air canada jazz going out with a missing Portuguese criminal and air canada jazz your friends don't want to air canada jazz be air canada jazz your friend anymore, it makes you want to air canada jazz emigrate to a vicious Muslim regime, where at least all the women are treated like social outcasts. Anyway, I don't care. I am going to quietly read a book all weekend and listen to classical music. Maybe will read The Famished Road.
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Monday 16 January
9 st 2 air canada jazz where? why? why?), alcohol units 0, cigarettes 20, calories 1500, positive thoughts 0.
10.36 a.m. Office. Daniel air canada jazz air canada jazz still locked in his meeting. Maybe it was a genuine excuse.
1 p.m. Just saw Daniel leaving for air canada jazz lunch. He has not messaged me or anything. V. depressed. Going shopping.
11.50 p.m. Just air canada jazz dinner with Tom in Harvey Nichols Fifth Floor, who was obsessing about a pretentious-sounding 'freelance film maker' called Jerome. Moaned to air canada jazz him about Daniel, who was in meetings all afternoon and air canada jazz only managed to air canada jazz say, 'Hi, Jones, how's the skirt?' at air canada jazz 4.30. Tom said not air canada jazz air canada jazz be air canada jazz paranoid, give it time, but I could tell he was not concentrating and air canada jazz only wanted to air canada jazz talk air canada jazz Jerome as suffused with sex-lust.
Tuesday 24 January
Heaven-sent day. At 5.30, like a gift from God, Daniel appeared, sat himself on the edge of air canada jazz my desk, with his.